Hi Tom, yea there is something about the situation that affects the effects that follow. Some people deserve to die and in that sense it's almost a relief as opposed some senseless act or acts that make a person feel entirely different about the situation. One issue as has been pointed out LE and Military are macho occupations so admitting something bothers you is somehow related to not being tough. As opposed to doing the right thing and face the problem with proper help and come out a stronger person....so it goes.